http://stefa.vox.com/library/posts/page/1/ en Vox Thu, 24 May 2007 09:19:44 -0700 Copyright 2007 http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://stefa.vox.com/library/post/and-so-it-is.html?_c=feed-rss-full nobody@vox.com(stefa) http://stefa.vox.com/library/post/and-so-it-is.html?_c=feed-rss-full http://stefa.vox.com/library/post/and-so-it-is.html?_c=feed-rss-full Thu, 24 May 2007 09:19:44 -0700 <p>a glass of wine, chitter chatter, two rum and cokes, thirty minutes of laughter and i&#39;m still miserable. i&#39;ve sent them off and i&#39;ve reached the point of no return. i&#39;m preparing myself for the worst. they&#39;ve decided to start dating, they&#39;ve had sex, they&#39;re soul mates. sixteen hours in a car together, two nights spent in the same bed, even more time spent enjoying each other&#39;s company in a place away from home... there&#39;s no way they&#39;re coming back unchanged. its always been my responsibility to be rational and forgiving. i can&#39;t remember the last time i was psycho selfish. maybe i should begin to form a different personality. when it comes to the matters of the heart, there is no real protection. everyone becomes foolish and vulnerable. the lucky ones find a life companion, but the majority end up being shat on.</p> <p>relationships have evolved into an undying cycle. what happened to clean breaks? what happened to the guy having enough decency to turn into a complete asshole? i&#39;m stuck with my thoughts and my inability to break away from a constant pain. it&#39;s nobody&#39;s fault but my own, this i know... it really sucks not having a scapegoat. so what do we leave it to? what do you do when you&#39;re full of shitty feelings?</p> <p>you think about the people who are actually struggling in life... those who are fighting to live to the day when they can be as hurt as you. hell, they&#39;d welcome the replacement of striving to live with the havoc that comes from dysfunctional relationships. then you start hoping for better. the strength of hope is underestimated. </p> <p>&#160;</p> <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://stefa.vox.com/library/post/and-so-it-is.html?_c=feed-rss-full#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00cd9719c0934cd500d4143ae95c3c7f?_c=feed-rss-full">Send to a friend</a> </p>